my heart torn into pieces when Abiy said “kesian Fahry, dressing dia tercabut, bila dia aktif tunjal2 kaki, kena alas tidur dia tu… dia nangis. sakit agaknya”.
Paed and the Orthopedic Surgeon was very positive to bring him to OT however, Anaestatic still says no. i don’t ask them directly but from Aunty Munirah i got that, for preemie, they tend to ‘forget to breathe’. so after being shuting down, most of the time they’ll forget to wake up and breath. sounds terrible, huh. Aunty Munirah even suggested me to drink caffeine so that Fahry will not be in deep sleep. cos deep sleep sometimes could be a killing machine when the preemie baby forget to breath.
the doctors will cut off the exposed bone.. and close the big wound. i don’t know the detail cos they are yet to tell us their full plan. so, the idea is that, to cut the bone and make it properly closed.
for his hands and the other foot, we still don’t have any plan. our concern now is to increase his weigh and secure his big wound.
i decided to spend a day or half of it with Fahry so that i can look after him. and apply for rooming-in after my family go back to our hometown, after their arrival this coming Christmas break.
we wasn’t sure about his weight, still 1.23kg, or 1.27kg, or 1.32 kg? i’ll check later with the nurses.
poor Fahry, he’s all alone in the warm incubator.
thinking about him makes my maternal instinct sets and adrifts. but i don’t want to deny the fact that he’s a very special someone. he brought us lots and lots of friends. it’s true that when Allah takes something from you, He’s giving you more! He tooks Fahry’s valuable foot, toes and fingers, but He blesses him with new friends, uncles and aunties who are really concern about him.
today we had Aunt Anamiraa here. she had some jobs in Miri & she came to our crib. she is a simple person (as my eyes could see). i hope she doesn’t mind for just having teh bujang saja….
Fahry also got special gifts from Aunty Jua, Aunty Teeny
, Aunty Shar, and other aunties who asked for our house address (will update later) 😀 Aunty Ely also sent a bottle of Fenugreek tabs for me to increase my breastmilk.
cepat Fahry besar… kami tak sanggup tengok Fahry in pain lagi… incidentally cutting my finger sikit pun sakitnya ya Allah… now i feel the pain during childbirth and post natal is nothing compare to what is Fahry bearing. big wound, and no painkiller…. Fahry tido je la biar tak rasa sakit OK.
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