now
– you slept at 2am.
- you cried when i asked you to sleep but you laugh everytime Mak Tok said “ni ape kuweh-kuweh mlm2 ni? nak jual kuih ke?” tak fahamla Mami. if only i could snap a picture…
- you didn’t wake up throughout the nite. unless a big scream at 3.25am. but went back to sleep after i pat your butt. mengigau?
kepala sapa paling besar?
- recognize people around you. you start to mengada2 everytime Mak Tok & Tok Ayah are home. wanna talk to Tok Ayah & want Mak Tok to dodoi2. you cry if you don’t get. ape dah…
- able to ‘creep’ [should i say menggelungsur] from Mommy’s body everytime i put you on my chest and lay your body beside me. without assistance!
- able to seek for Mommy’s tits. now Mommy don’t have to put the nip into your mouth during latching on. you know how and where to find.
- confidently know what you want especially feeding. you’ll scream if Mommy offer you food, you rather ask it by yourself. tgh2 lapa pn xaccept offer, nk mintak sdr jugak.
- sleep soundly in AC. everytime i switch the AC off, you’ll scream. aduila… umah Miri manader ekonla sayang….
- can stay alone. you don’t cry if i leave you alone. erk, sometimes…
- like to play with Mommy’s nip. lick, suck and leave. lick, suck and leave…
- need new clothes..
- still the cutest! oh this is undeniable.
kurus tak Mami? kurus kan? ehehe..
if only i serve the government, i might take the 5-years-unpaid leave for that purpose. but it’s unfortunate, i am not a government servant, and i can’t take the leave longer than what i’d apply, cos i am the one who is responsible to run a big project in our region, and i have to go back ASAP to continue it (now it’s handed over to my Section Head).
i guess everymom (or should i say, every working mom?) when given option, whether to work or stay at home, may choose the second one. so do i. but i have two biggest reasons why i can’t. first, i have another 8 years to complete my 10-years scholarship bonding with the company. second, i have to help Abiy in complementing our family’s income. as an office-based staff, he doesn’t get extra allowance. we can live, but without any saving if i don’t work. our company doesn’t give us any big salary as what people usually think. even our GM gets the lowest amongst other companies’ GM (right, ibu emir? hostel download free 
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i feel jealous sometimes, to any mommy who ables to stop working and stay at home. and i feel hard to struggly working, because i NEED to work, not i WANT to work. now, even if i don’t like my position or whatnot, i still have to do my job, to be unconditionally happy and put the highest target in my career. and i have to struggly maintain my reputation even if i’m not happy with that. and i can’t lose the job, because of reasons i mentioned above.
but, on top of that, i put a target to retreat from this struggle office work at my 35, which is 10 years from now. doesn’t mean that i wanna quit job but i don’t wanna struggle just because of my ‘rice pot’ is there. i wanna be happily working, without stress and risk of being fired (fire by laser) by ‘discontented’ bosses. to get there, needs lots of hard work and sacrifice. dare to take the challenge?
by the way, we’ll soon have a maid. the drastic decision came when our most precious auntie refused to follow us and we failed to find any babysitter who lives near to our office or at least on our way from home to the office. i want you to stay as close to me as possible coz i wanna breastfeed you during lunch hour, everyweekday. then i come out with so-called breastfeeding schedule once i go back to work (other than your own demand):-
first feeding – 4.am - when we wake up for Subuh.
(in between if you request).
7.am – before go to work.
12.pm – lunch hour.
4.30pm – after come back from office.
(in between depend on your demand).
download bachelor party vegas online last feeding – 12.am – before go to bed.
i hope:-
-our maid is a good one.
-my boss ain’t fussy and understand needs of a bf mom.
-you love ebm as you love direct feeding.
-i have time to prepare and achieve my target when we’re home and i start working.
-i can go back to structural engineering line.
-everything works as planned.
and….
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i am sooo want to work but at the moment, our situation doesn’t really allow me to work. so lps bc ur entry ni i think mebbe I should just duk diam2 appreciate the moments i’m having now n at least bersyukur nnt i can fully take care of my own child…
nway gud luck ok with ur plans ahead. all best wishes
Hafy dgr cakap Mami tau! ;D
ina,
oh, rasanya working mom je kot. hehe. my n3 edited
to me working so exhaust me especially when doing someting i cant enjoy. huhu.
hopefully the plans work. ammeen.
siti lina, dah nak start working back? i have started work this week and guess what, memang tak best langsung.
even my baby pun tak suka coz on the 1st day tuh, die asyek merengek and minum susu pun macam nak tak nak je… i guess die rindu nak begayut…:)
nway, gud luck on the seperation mood nanti…
CT
ntah cemana boleh masuk sini..anyway, congratulation for your first child ok
salam perkenalan,
geramnyer tengok pipi hafiy, tembam.
dan selamat kembali berkerja,menjadi seorang ibu yang berkerjaya menuntut kesabaran & semangat yang tinggi.
Olohh… compare ngan Afy logikla mummy dio napok kuruh.. koya… hahhahah
Hafiy= candidate of diabetic baby… hahhahahahahhahahahah! Share la susu 2 org Afy…
sure Abiy Hafiy tak sabar tunggu anak die blk rumah kn!
haih, mcm ni aku kene kerja kuat2 pulun home business aku la:P
Confirm la mommy of triplets
ct,
i have another 2 months to go
thanks boss for approving my leave! shayang boss, shayang dia!!! hihi.
cannot imagine la. tinggal dia kejap pun rasa rindu+worry. hehe.
mawar,
TQ 4 d wish!
hehe. masukla lagi
ijah,
salam perkenalan..
mmg betul! semangatnya nak mintak cuti! hehe.
mekngoh,
minum susu mani exclusively je la.. mana ada diabetic. lainla kalo awal2 dah kene suap. huhu.
munirah MOT,
hehe. itula pasal…
babe,
baguslah macam tu! aku ni pun rasa cam nak mati dah piki sal keje.
abiya,
cepatla balekkk!!!!!
hehe..along body mmg slim..tp muke tu nmpk berisi sket..baru la nmpk cm muke ibu2..kalo tk tu cm budak2 la plak…heheh
dgn maid u kena be firm rite from the beginning tau. i punye cam dh nk naik lemak. sbb kn kite younger then them…tu senang they naik lemak.
semoga semua yg diimpikan dan diplan dapat dilaksanakan.
jumpa abiy eh tak lama lagi hafiy?
meme maso mulo2 nok start kkijo semula tu raso semacae jah….berat ati nok tingga baby….
baby pung maso kito balik tuh, macae ngajuk jah…tok sir tengok muko lah, ggapo lah….hehehehe….be prepared jah la hahahha…good luck!!
kus semangat anak kak siti ni! hehe~
hok aloh…tu’buhnyo dio. Make gapo tu?
muneera,
ha, ye ke? xleh jadi ni. kene cari alat nak lift face ni. hua hua hua.
munirah MOT,
haiyyo… nt nak sambung story ni kat YM la… isk3x
wan,
amiin.
ehe. tak sabar tu hafiy nak jumpe abiy.
k wear,
huuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu… sabit tu la sanggup amik risk amik maid, tgh2 hari bleh kelit jenguk dio. huhuhu. nok bereti kijoooo!!!
setan merah,
ek? kecik je tu. uhuhuhu
toknabe,
make gapo lagi… susu ibu la!
Semua ibu macam tu tapi bila lama2 kerja dah bertimbun dpn mata.., anak pun kita lupa…bila anak dah besar sikit rasa nyesal plak tak habiskan masa betul2 dgn anak sedar2 anak dah besar ditgn orang gaji…huhuuuu …camtulah saya rasa….now anak dah nak masuk 5 tahun tapi searuh masa dia besar bkn depan kita…apapun hafiy memang comei..gerrrammm
biasala tu SL…akak dulupun macam tuh…tapi kan klu nak tinggal baby…jangan toleh belakang…klu toleh mang sampai ofis la airmata meleleh….akak klu tinggal Aqilah…memang tak toleh dah…masuk keta…start enjin terus jalan! nak cium..cium sebelum kuar umah…babai2…tata2 tak mo!
dulu ada cakap nak buat nursery kat setiap opis di m’sia. semua mak bapak yg keje bleh letak anak kat situ…..
tapi citer jelah……….
sama gak dgn cuti 5 tahun nih…
hanisumayyah,
ye la agaknya.. dah keje mmg bz ngan keje pulak.
cepat2la dpt berenti keja.. huhu.
puterisatu,
ohoho. kira tinggal terus jgn tengok2 dah. hehe. bole2 try prektis ni.
cikdinz,
huhu. yeke. biar je la diorang. idup kita xberubah2 jugak. huhu.
salam kak lina.
erk..sy termiss entry ni. ntah apa yg sy duk bz last week. hafiy dh 2 m/o!! n hafiy sgt bulat. jgn biar dia kecut. sbb hafiy mmg sgt comel bulat2 mcm ni. hmm.. kalau kerja kerajaan pun, ada yg x dpt amik 5yrs unpaid leave tu. eg: doctors. uwaaa~