*I’m so sorry if my writing may hurt certain people.
In 2007, when I started to BF Hafiy, I was very obsess about BFing. If you read my entry dated 2007 & early 2008 tagged Breastfeeding, all are full of obsession and sometimes out-of-mind. I even think about deleting those (shy-shy beb), but after re-thinking, hey it’s the babystep to reach this stage ain’t it. Everything about not BFing made my adrenaline rushed. Haha. I would respond to any issue about BFing.
It’s really true that we learn from experience. The obsessive mind of mine made some friends (online and offline) felt dishearten and started to blow themselves away from me. Either not contacting me or not coming to this blog anymore 😀 From there I learned that we have different preferences in life. I might love BFing so much but I am not very excellent in my job. I job-hopped from one position to another. Others might have better life than me but unfortunate in BFing. So I’m slowing down, in other word try to keep my writing acceptable to everyone, yet motivating for those who wants to BF.
Well, I’m not against FM but I was …*OK i dont know the proper word to use* if anyone told me that she wanted to BF, but not thoroughly. They told me some reasons for the failure, which I couldn’t accept. Because I faced those to….
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I wasn’t starting with a bloom, big breast that leaked in the first hour of my baby’s birth. I was only manage to breastfeed Hafiy for the first time, only 18 hours after his birth. And I’m still breastfeeding him until now.
I had no milk’ for 4 days. Only then my breast started to engorge. But I never gave Hafiy any FM. And he’s alive until today, and healthy.
I pumped milk for Fahry during the first day, but nothing came out. But I still pumped and pumped, stimulated it by suckling Hafiy, ate this and that… and I’m breastfeeding him until today. He’s healthy with good weight gain.
To me, it’s all about passion. Before I gave birth to Hafiy, people always said this to me "You only could BF if you have enough milk". I consult my gynae about this (she’s also breastfeeding). What she told me was very inspiring. It was about Allah won’t let our children die for insufficient milk. And we really don’t have milk for the first few days. Newborn would lose their weight during the very first week and it’s perfectly normal.
With the full passion of not-giving-my-baby-FM, I kept on suckling him. He cried.. yes he cried A LOT! And still crying until now. But I never thought about crying for food. He had lots of reasons to cry and food might be the last.
And for Fahry, even if my milk was like ‘hidup segan mati tak mahu’ but I’ struggled to do my best. With helps from some good friends, Ealyie
and IbuKauthar who sent some galactogens to boost my milk supply, Jua download trapped dvd who sent me a good book about breastfeeding and other friends (too many until I couldn’t list their name here) who gave me lots and lots of motivation, now I claim myself to be a successful breastfeeder for my premature baby 😀 *clap clap*
Yes, I had problem with my milk supply during last pregnancy, until I had to supplement Hafiy with soy formula for 1 month and a half. So he only got my breastmilk at night. It was after consulting with several LCs. They ‘supported’ me to accept the truth that I have to give FM to Hafiy. It’s really normal for a pregger to have a dramatic drop in milk supply.
Until now I just get 1-2 oz every usual pumping session. And I still manage to breastfeed both Hafiy and Fahry. Hafiy now is 100% on my breastmilk.
If I can, why couldn’t you (if you’re really want to BF lah)?
Don’t feel downgraded if you have to give your baby FM, it won’t make you a bad mother. Raising our little ones is also about choices.
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